2002-01-02, 10:54 p.m.

i fucking love miles davis.

you light a few candles, put some miles davis on and seriously the entire world slips away into nothing that even is CARED to think about for that moment. he is very good by myself music. so good. i fall in love too easily has always been my favorite, but right now i'm listening to blue in green and it sounds just perfect. no im serious. perfect.

today i virtually spent all my free time on my computer. because sometimes i love that kind of stuff, just being able to sit here all day. even if im not doing anything, just sitting here is nice and relaxing and stuff.

i got a digital camera. super cheap for what it all has and stuff, but i can't wait to get it. (its coming in the mail) it is going to become my new best friend, i've decided. i am going to take it with me everywhere just so i'll never ever have to squirm because i've missed yet another great photo opportunity. i'm going to test my good picture taking skills, like artsy pictures is what i mean. i'll post them all up too so then i can see what other people think. oh man i can't wait. new toys are so much fun.

i was looking at old pictures of my mom tonite, cause over christmas i dug through all her pictures and found a bunch and stuff. there are pictures of her when she was a kid in there. its hard to imagine my mom as a kid, you know. i mean shes not that old or anything, its not that. its just hard to imagine that she used to spend time with her family and do weird kid stuff and i don't know, its just weird. there are bunch of pictures of me and her when i was a baby. i wish i could remember being a baby. the farthest back i can remember is being around 3 or 4, but nothing before that. don't you all wish you could remember being a baby. i look at these pictures and wonder what was going on in my little head at that time. seriously i was probably the cutest baby alive. oh don't worry i'll scan pictures and prove it to you. and of course you will agree. you know who was a cute toddler? allie. oh god she was so adorable when she was a toddler, she was so chubby. rachel was never as chubby as allie, but allie was sooooooo cute. oh man i can't believe how cute she used to be! yay for pictures.

okay im tired and i have to work and be up at the crack of dawn to shower, because i just always feel better if i shower in the morning. have sweet dreams world.