june 12th - early, 12:16 a.m.

i was listening to kathy's song and thinking about niagara falls tonite. its raining and right outside our window there is a street lamp and the tree is all glowing orangy and it makes me think about that night at niagara falls. i don't know why that memory will be forever etched in my mind, but it will. and i read over my niagara falls poem again, i always have this weird thing of listening to this song and then reading the poem and trying to recapture how i felt. but i was really feeling that i wanted to go to england, that i wanted to do so many things with my life. that was before i penciled bobby into my life, that was when i was still rebelious against any sort of relationship compromise. i know now to always stay rebelious, once you compromise its all downhill and pain from there.

but like i said in indecisive i am ready to find new places that inspire me, rather than just niagara falls. and i know there are lots of places out there that will touch me in inspiring ways too. i just have to find them and i will. hey go check out my picture collage, its on the older entries thingy. yay for that.

im warm right now. warm warm warm. sweet dreams world.

i don't know why i spend my time writing songs i can't believe with words that tear and strain to rhyme...